yeah, you look a little fat in that shirt.

i would have to admit that one of my greatest character flaws is wrapped up in the power of assumption. it is really easy for me to pass judgment on people based off of maybe one conversation with or sometimes even one bad look from them. it's also really easy for me to have the intentions of others figured out based off of a few things they have done to me or indirectly done to me. this is just something i really struggle with.

i think part of the reason i have such a hard time with this is the fact that i am pretty basic when it comes to what i say vs. what i mean. in other words - i call it like it is. you won't find me telling you one thing but then finding out later that i meant an entirely different thing. meaning, i would make a terrible husband. wife asks me if her shirt is ugly, i'm going to say yes if it does and no if it doesn't - and i'd rather not explain why i feel that way.

however, i understand that most of the people in this world are not like that in their communication. which brings me to what i said i struggle with in that first paragraph there... judgment, assumption, etc... in wall street (great movie by the way), there are about a billion lines i wanted to write down, but my hand is only so big and the light is only so bright and i got one from michael douglas down: 'the mother of all evil is speculation.'

i really resonated with this because i feel like lately, quarter stories/half stories/partial truths/one-sided opinions have been gnawing on my mind a little and i would like them to go on a diet.

something i really can't stand/respect about stini and my mom is the fact that they have a million different explanations for something before they pass a judgment, or let me pass one. and this can be excruciatingly frustrating when you're trying to vent and you just want to hear, 'yeah man that sucks!' but i also really respect the fact that they are unrelenting when it comes to trying to find the least amount of bad in everyone that they can.

got a lot of stuff to work on. like usual.