let me turn a page.

i had a little chunk of time between jobs today and used it to drink coffee at panera and read the same book i've been reading since august. seems like there is so much stuff to do all of the time, and then when i have chill time - reading feels like a very excellent but brain tiring effort. for me, trying to finish a book is like dusting my room. it would be such a great end result, but there are too many damn knickknacks on top of every flat surface that it only happens every so often.

that analogy only made sense in my own head, i'm sure of it.

anyways - while i was there, trying to read, there were two teenage girls in the booth next to me. they were really giggly loud and obnoxious. and i would make it through a paragraph of my book before i would get distracted with their conversation. i have to admit - i was pretty fascinated. mostly because their conversation was so... fake. no exaggeration at all, there was a point in the twenty or so minutes when one of the girls said, "i'm sorry i just can't stop staring at you, 'cause you are like SO pretty! oh my gosh!" and then the other girl was very thankful and then proceeded to tell her about how these boys got her to get high at a party one night and etc, etc...

as you can see - i am ridiculous for even being so caught up with their business, but they reminded me of this quote i read from C.S. lewis the other day. may i just interject here with how awesome clive is? he is freaking brilliant. my friend says that she has a crush on him - and i don't blame her.

'we live in a world starved for solitude, silence, and private: and therefore starved for meditation and true friendship.' - c.s. lewis.

i am really blessed to have some incredible friends in my life. although we love to have fun and laugh (things we do well and often), i also love that we can go deep on any topic you can think of - and we have. i honestly can't think of anything we haven't talked about. i also know how much i need alone time - to think, pray, write, sing, etc...

if only everyone could have christinas and lydias and beckys and karas in their lives. and a lot of other really cool _____s. then they wouldn't have to distract people in panera when they're trying to finish a book for crying out loud.

now i'm going to go to sleep and think about how judgmental i just was.