my friend

something you hear often amongst people who don't believe in Jesus is that they do believe in something bigger than themselves, but God isn't that something. however, they never sound sure of it. they never sound sure that God isn't the one reason they're here, they sound more like they want to be sure.

i had a friend that was so firm in her beliefs, many of which i didn't agree with, some of which were not biblically accurate. she was so sure of what she believed. positive. she would be ready to debate and argue for hours. and she knew her stuff. she was very educated in what she had been raised to believe, and she was ready to show me.

but still, in her stubborn, knowledgeable spirit, i could see something in her eyes, hear something in her voice, that knew. i mean really knew, that what she was saying and "believing" wasn't the end all. because even though she was willing to fight for her religion, she was still so inquisitive. so curious as to how i could challenge her thinking. i loved that. it may not always seem like it, but i love it when my thinking is challenged.

and i've always thought - if my friend believed the end all truth, think what she could do with it. sometimes i would get caught up thinking about how many lives she could impact, how many hearts she could help soften. she is hardcore for her religion. and in my years with her, i longed for her to be hardcore with her faith.

ultimately the relationship started with this one friend, strengthened my faith in ways i can not even begin to describe. she has influence beyond words. and i still pray for her - that she'll be able to explore and search.

but more than that. i pray that she'll be able to find.