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i was reading phillipians the other day and noticed the really awesome journalistic approach at the way the chapter was written by paul and timothy. they start writing about the mental struggle of choosing to live on earth and preach the gospel, and seeing the fruit of their labor - or dying and living with Christ in eternity.

verse 21 - for to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.

what would i do? would i choose to live for the sole purpose of directing lives toward Christ? or die to be with Christ for forever? would my apprehension bite me if i chose to live? would my fear be so strong that i cannot help win lives for Him? or would my choice make me brave? would i be undignified in the spreading of the truth, willing to shed my own blood for the sake of the one whose blood was shed?

i feel like my blood is so cheap compared to that of Christ. nearly worthless in perspective. but, i can't really put that into perspective. i am as valuable as the God inside me.

'for i have been crucified with Christ, it's no longer i who live, but Christ who lives in me.' galations 2:20

i think that our outlook on the gifts God has placed inside of us would change the second we realize that it is the creator of those gifts that is dwelling within us.

maybe the moment that truth hits us will inspire confidence, and creativity; new life, and new perspective.

may every step we take, word we speak, move we make - be glorifying to the God inside of us.