love me baby

a prayer for the ephesians:

for this reason i kneel before the Father, from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. i pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. and i pray that you, being rooted and eastablished in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge - that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

e 3:14

i want to know what it feels like to be firmly rooted in the great love of God. when does this happen? when you're a mature christian, having been through hellish ministry and back? when you have been on at least one missions trip, and have gotten x amount of people "saved"? or is it a time in your life, seventeen or seventy; burnt out, or burning, that you become burried in the love of Christ?

my greatest desire? to have everything i exude - my words, attitude, music, deeds, intentions, appearance - be laced with the presence of Him who sent me.

i think that that will not happen until i've been firmly rooted in the depths of His heart. but i think that this is where i have to start. with the desire.

i don't know what i would do if i were God, and didn't see this kind of desire in my children.
i was watching bruce almighty lastnight, and this one part got me to thinking. when he's trying to get his woman to love him - while he has God's power, and he's not able to mess with free will. and when he tries to go get her back, she won't have it. so he jumps up and holds out his hands and keeps saying, "love me. love me. loooove me."

you know that's what the Lord's will for his children is. to love him. with all our hearts. and i'm so sure that he is pleading with most of us to love him, love him, love him - and yet, even those of us that say we do, just love him as much as we think is necessary.

but if we're only loving Christ with the smallest amounts of our hearts - how can we be firmly rooted in his love?