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"a woman's heart is such a complex problem - the owner thereof is often the most incompetent to find the solution of this puzzle." - baroness orczy

i'm finding that i'm having a harder time figuring myself out than most people do. so frustrating.

it's why i love asking my dad where he thinks i'll be in some odd amount of years. because i like hearing what he thinks i should do, or what he thinks i could become.

sometimes i wish that each and every person had a full time dreamer by their side. all the dreamer did was dream, and encourage you in those dreams. because, oftentimes i think people let the practicality and boring (yet necessary, yes yes, i know) logistics get in the way of what their heart is beating for.

and that is disappointing.

unfortunately, i came to the harsh realization that i will indeed someday have to make money - which sounds so high-heelish and dull, but nonetheless, i can't spend the rest of my life learning spanish with another cashier for seven fifty an hour.

and now... well, now that this currency thing has come into my mind - i'm a bit lost. and i'm only seventeen. i feel awful for the many high-school/college graduates i know that feel they are in the same boat with me.

and now i wish i was my full time dreamer and that the world would accept my living them out as bill payment.