protagonist

today i finished the count of monte cristo. not even the first time i read it and still, utterly captivated. there's this intelligent and inspiring abbe who spends time with edmond while they are both imprisoned. in the beginning chapters (in a scene where edmond is trying to escape the abbe's attentions), the abbe says, "here i am, obstinately resolved on pursuing you." that reminded me a lot of someone.

i left the book at the house i borrowed it from and then i went to the train. i reached for the story, but realized i'd finished it. there's always an achy little part of me that sighs when i reach for a story i've been captured in and realize i've read the ending. i get caught up in the characters. i get lost in the time and setting. this only happens with really, really good stories.

i think the abbe reminded me of Jesus. i think Jesus is obstinately resolved on pursuing me and i think he wants me to reach for his story; i think it's important to understand the meaning of my involvement in it. i think there's something to be said for getting lost in space and time and contentedness and loving the characters in your very own story.