this little baby walked right into my heart the day i found out his mama was carryin' him around in her belly. but the day he was born, february 23rd, he somehow found a way to squirm his way a little deeper into it. we share a lot of things already... a love for our family, a safe cozy feeling when they are around, a last name, and... a birthday!
ever since i found out he was a boy, i would listen to this song and think of him. but now that he is HERE, i can't help but get teary when i listen to it.
"But somebody told me that your nephew was born
Oh, a beautiful baby, so smart and so sure of his little self
And in a wonderful way he was making me feel so small" (boy & bear - big man)
since he was due the day before my birthday, people would ask me if i wanted him to be born on my birthday or if i would feel "overshadowed". puhlease. as much as i love my birthday - i would love even more to have a little baby bring some more joy and life to it! i got some great gifts this year - including a visit from my dad who spoiled us for the weekend, but nothing could trump waking up to a new family member. the newest love of my life - landon gabriel abare.
and he made me feel small in the best way. the way that all babies make me feel: small compared to the size of my swelling heart as i hold their tiny little bodies in my arms, or as they discover new things, or when they squeal when i walk into the room. there's no describing how much i love babies - or how much they teach me about acceptance, love, and happiness. but there's absolutely no way to write or talk to you about how much my heart bursts at the thought of my niece and nephew. they're both constantly teaching me how to make space in this tight squeeze of a heart that i have.
thanks for coming, landon. and thanks for sharing things with me. like a birthday. and the best family in the world.
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