rush

all growing up, i've had decisions made for me. when we moved, it wasn't my choice. i was told we were moving, and i moved. over and over. and when we went to church, i didn't pick which church - i went where we were going and that was that. i've never had to make big decisions for myself.

i'm sure everyone goes through this to some extent (maybe not with the continuous moving from house to house, city to city, state to state...). and well, here i am - caught in the middle of this decision-making process.

i feel like the lurking, "what the h do i do with my life?" question has been answered. i can't wait to be a teacher. but there are other questions left unanswered. questions that i want to be answered. questions that i feel like i need to be answered.

over the past five days, i've been asking some really big questions. and surprisingly enough, i feel like i've gotten a lot of answers. but i know a lot of my answers require waiting. waiting on others, waiting on God, waiting on me...

have you ever had an overwhelming peace and joy that comes from an absolute certainty that you are right where you're supposed to be, doing exactly what you're supposed to be doing, in just the perfect time frame, with just the right people/person by your side?

i have. i have that peace and joy now, as a matter of fact.

and even though i have answers that require patience, i know that i will last. i have a perfect peace that everything will happen in the perfect timing. i don't have to press anything.

the only rush i'm in is the outpouring of love from the One who calls me beautiful.

"for your love is ever before me..." psalm twenty-six:three