attitude

i really like how jacob answers to the Lord with the words, "here i am."

it's like he's just layin' it out there. he's not trying to hide from God, he's letting him know, with his immediate response, that he's ready to answer to what God's about to ask of him.

i wish i could have more of a 'here i am' attitude.

sometimes i am afraid of what the Lord may have to say. i begin making suppositions on his behalf and i pretend like i know his outlook on the situation. or - i'm afraid i won't get an answer at all. so ... sometimes i just hide out. i don't let the Lord know i'm here, even though ... he knows it.

we always ask for God to "please come" (which ... i don't understand, because, he's already there). i think we should let the Lord know that we are here, and we are ready to be summoned by him. ready to partake in the riches he has in store for us.

i suppose my willingness to follow God isn't so simply displayed by the way i live, and for that i am regretful.

praise the sweet baby Jesus things can change.