all my life i've heard, "wow - you are you're dad's daughter." duh. isn't everyone? well, in my case it's eerily on point. my boyfriend has met my dad twice now and after the second trip he said, "yeah... you are your dad." this makes me laugh - because it's not just that i'm so much like my dad; it's also that i'm just so much like a man, period.
i have five brothers and they always call me, "sister", but i think it's more of a "claim it with faith" name, because they all tell me i act more like a boy than any of them. again, this makes me laugh...
but now i've chuckled myself all the way into a relationship and i think that while my "one of the guys" quality is high up on my guy's list of reasons he adores me (cocky? ok.), i also know that my male tendencies can lead to him feeling belittled or not as needed.
so what do you do when you feel like a dude with boobs? i hit a point in the day (every day) where talking & listening are the last things i want to do. i'm not one to be lovey-dovey and i need my alone time in a major way (although, i'm pretty sure that is the product of growing up in a huge family where alone time wasn't a possibility).
well all you girls who are truly boys on the inside - keep on being yourself. you'll probably find someone someday that says, "hey - i'd rather you run out of words or listening capacity and laugh at my jokes and hang out easily with my friends." these kinds of guys are gems.
no but really... guys. the older i get, the more important i realize it is to get super comfy in your skin. you're gonna be in it forever. it's super refreshing to just had a core group of people who you hang out with and you don't have to alter yourself in any way and you're accepted for whatever physical or mental state you're in. but at the same time, you're ever evolving and being accepted in that process too. ah the things i wish i would have always known, but am thankful to know now nonetheless.
ya need ta get yerself a new map.
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