this is the story about a girl named lucky

so as apart of this women's discipleship group i'm apart of we are learning our strengths and triggering the conversation by finding out what they are through the strengths finder 2.0 by tom rath.

the very first strength listed for me after taking the test was 'activator'. in the last sentence of the "shared theme description" for this particular strength it says: 'they are often impatient...'

this is probably the main thing i cannot stand about myself. my lack of patience. mostly because it affects the relationships in my life that i hold the very dearest. but also a lot because i so admire patient people. my mother, for instance, would be the person i'd ask to take a profile shot of and frame to hang over the mantle or something. like a saint, that mom of mine.

and i can't ever figure out why i'm not patient (besides the tiny fact that i am the spawn of tim abare), as all of the great things in my life have happened mainly because of waiting and holding out for the best.

and here in this city where everyone is rushing from one place to the next, one train to the next, one job to the next... i find it so easy to feel like i need to be just as rushed as they are. even if i have no plans, i will find myself jetting from one place to the next like i am actually in a hurry. and i get frustrated at people who cut in front of me, etc..

but you know? slowly but surely, patience is seeping into my stubbornness. because there's only so many times someone can walk up to you and cuss you out for no reason or roll over your foot with a suit case like you're invisible before you just don't notice.

this explains my lucky streak (right, mark?!):

'but God's not finished. he's waiting around to be gracious to you. he's gathering strength to show mercy to you. God takes the time to do everything right - everything. those who wait around for him are the lucky ones.' isaiah 30:18