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'if love's elastic, then were we born to test it's reach?' - sleeping at last (homesick // october ep)

do you ever feel like you're on the pursuit of something that literally has no end in sight? sometimes this is terrible.. like when you're in school and it feels like getting that ridiculous piece of paper is more than three lifetimes away. or when you get dumped and you feel like you're never going to be able to look at a person of the opposite sex that is around your age and single without cringing.

i hate this - but it is really easy for my relationship with Jesus to turn into a routine with him, which then turns into a rut. it's RRR, but not the good kind. i end up pushing the time i set aside in the morning to be with him to be after work because my eyes aren't adjusted enough to read so early (or something like that), and then after work i've been thinking and i don't feel like thinking anymore, so then i push it to before i go to bed, but then i'm just so tired that i end up throwing a half-assed prayer up to my ceiling as kind of a "let's still talk, but not really talk" kind of motion... you see where i'm going with this..

i say all of that to say - i am rut-less as of late! i'm enjoying being on this pursuit of something that is endless. i like that i haven't let my relationship with God go stale. i like that i feel like i'm testing all of the unlimitedness of his love, grace, and generosity. and also - i like that i am remaining completely open to his pursuit of me.

how do you keep things spicy?