off my rump

in one of paul's letters to the church at corinth, he says, "we are not withholding our affection from you, but you are withholding yours from us."

have you ever stopped to think for one minute, that maybe the only reason we can't feel the love of God, isn't because he is holding out on us, but that we are holding out him?

i've definitely experienced that.

sometimes i think it's so annoying that i can't hear God. but then i realize i haven't even stopped to listen. sometimes i think it's so frustrating that i haven't felt God. but then i realize that i haven't asked. and sometimes i get frustrated that i can't feel every ounce of love the Lord has for me. but then i realize i've been the only one holding back ...

and when i come to these points of realization... i'm humbled. for, once again, i realize that i've been the one on my butt - when maybe i should be on my knees.