yet another dear jo

"damaged people are dangerous. they know they can survive." - josephine hart

i have no idea who josephine hart is and i have no idea when or why or where she wrote this, but i love it. i especially love it after i just got off the phone with craig and kara having a conversation so closely related to this quote.

i've written about this before... the incredible confidence being dumped or ditched gives you. but i'm reminded of it every day in some way or another. however, there is a scariness to said confidence. a fear of becoming jaded.. expectant of heartbreak or sucky people to use and abuse that heart of mine.

i can honestly say, and thankfully so, i still assume people are good (unless they prove me wrong). i do not think all guys are jerks or all girls are psycho (although if i had to pick one theory, i would DEFinitely pick all girls are psycho). i still want to becomes friends with people, i still want to date another hottie, and i still think having a friend for a little while is better than never having a friend at all.

but i am afraid that i will become too strong in my survival spirit. even though i don't expect people to do stupid things, i'm not surprised when they do. and i feel like that sounds so terrible. i feel like that is such a weird attitude or stance to have. but the same attitude that allows me to be pretty much fine with life handing me some disgustingly sour lemons, also allows me to excitedly pack my bags and move out and on to a big scary city that could eat me up in one bite.

it did take some confidence to look under the scary hell that i call underneath my bed to clean out and pack.. however, right now i can't even finish that thought because i'm still thinking about the salmon, stuffed mushrooms, and deliciously bright green vegetables that caleb and lyds just made me.