you wish. i wish.

i'm getting used to the fact that i will probably never truly be cool.

i have really cool friends. for example...

my best friend lyds is really cool. she says cool things and knows about cool videos and has a cool tattoo and just has cool coming out of her pores. she has a cool haircut and used to have a cool piercing. she has a cool boyfriend and she does cool things. she works at a coffee shop she wants to own her own someday and i can't wait to see her life unfold. http://lydiamsmith.tumblr.com/

lucas is really cool. he is a musician and he's really funny. he wears cool clothes and he's basically a savant when it comes to instruments. he can pretty much play anything he touches and he can usually just pick up a guitar and start playing with a song even if it's the first time he's ever hearing it. someday lucas will be famous and you guys will wish you were me. download his music here: https://www.noisetrade.com/johnlucas#

my brother brad is really cool. people find out my last name and somehow they know brad. he's smart and reads really cool books and has a cool wife and a cool loft in downtown LA and it has a hot tub on the roof and he takes the bus to work and has a homeless small group and he writes cool stuff. he made up a website called churchmarketingsucks.com and he just has cool ideas. http://www.bradabare.com/

i have a lot of cool friends. they have cool relationships with Jesus and they do cool stuff. they look cool and they talk cool. i feel like they even think cool. and i just honestly feel like this will never be me. no matter what i write or read or what i paint or take a picture of. no matter how i cut my hair or dress... i'm just not destined to be the cool girl. maybe this was spurred by the finding of my orthodontia pictures from ten years ago. yikes. my mom had to have coined the phrase "a face only a mother could love". or maybe those pictures didn't really do anything and i just wanted to tell you how cool some of my friends are.

some other really cool people i know:

estherhavens.com
equitas.cc
kristensomodywhalen.com
bfmtim.wordpress.com
flickr.com/people/laurenbennett
kovasckitz.com
ceagon.com
oneroofafrica.blogspot.com
lovehaiti.com
hipstercollective.com
sarahdeshields.com