to keats

so i have recently been able to dig up some time. along with finding my old friend are the memories (that are now made actualities) of days when i didn't have to wake up at a certain hour, didn't have to plan my entire day if i wanted to go to the Y, and don't have to try and go to bed at a normal time just so i wouldn't be a jerk the next day.

this means school is winding down and after taking nineteen hours this last semester, i have learned a three things: i am still not good at math and i will never take nineteen hours again.

if i had to write down in my lisa frank diary what one of my favorite pastimes was, watching movies would be somewhere on the list. on tuesday (emphasis on the tuesday), i watched 'bright star'. someone had told me they were disappointed in this, so for once in my freakin' lifetime i kept my expectations low... i haven't been able to finish the last thirty minutes or so of it, but i must say that i really, really like it. i love the relational dynamics throughout the movie, and i really like the main girl's attitude - confident, witty, outspoken... and the main guy is a writer, so of course i really like him.

there's something that the main girl says closer to the beginning of the film that i really liked... 'hope and results are different - one doesn't necessarily create the other.'

i've been really encouraged lately to make sure my hope is in something/someone that will not fail. this seems so elementary, but honestly - it took my heart being broken to realize how crucial it is to not put your trust in humans. they will fail you. period. and even if the outcome of the things i hoped for wasn't the outcome i expected - i'm pretty sure that my hope being rooted in this entity that will never fail me is going to pull through. ok, i am positive.