buffalo gals

don't you ever wish there was some way to snap your fingers (or something equally effortless) and have someone's eyes opened up to their potential?

i can say, without a doubt, that my parents have never put any specific pressure on me to be one thing or the other. to do one thing or the other. my dad has always told us (his kids) that he wants to encourage us to pursue what we're passionate about.

the pressure, in my life at least, has been trying to figure out what i'm passionate about. i know what i like to do, and sometimes i even think i have a pretty good grasp on what i want to do - but when it comes down to it... i just don't know.

and i wonder if my uncertainty comes from the fear of failure or the fear of inadequacy.

i would much rather try and fail, then be so afraid of trying for fear of failing.

sometimes i want george bailey to come through and lasso the moon for me. i want all my dreams to come true.

but my biggest dream is to be in the dangerous will of God. smack in the middle. not kind of doing his will, not a little bit... i want all of my heart to be devoted to the purpose he has created me for.

i just want to figure out how i'll know what that is.

how does it go in the movies? "how will i know if he's the one?" "you'll just know."