daytripper

yesterday in the car my friend's dad said, "joy looks like she's looking at the moon, but it's morning time. there is no moon."

do you ever do that? look out the window so intently that you loose yourself in the moment?

i soon realized that all of the things i would try and fix my eyes on were whisking by so fast.

if i would fasten my eyes on a tree in the distance, it would be gone within five seconds and i would have to pick a new thing to gaze upon. so, i instead decided to fix my eyes upon something on the window, so it wouldn't leave.

it's what was comfortable. i didn't want to explore anything outside the window, because it would just leave. if i limited myself to the certainty of an object on the window, i wouldn't have to deal with anything i didn't want to.

sometimes i like to bask in the comfort of the known, when i all i really need to do is venture onto the grounds of the unknown.

i think we hinder our potentials when we soak in comfort.

maybe if i would start looking out the window and seeing everything there is to see, i would become uncomfortable enough to find some potential.