persistency, please

my older brothers have often joked about the possibility of writing a, "when to shut-up" book for their younger siblings.

need a "for-instance"? alright:

mom: "elroy, you are not going to be able to play outside when we get home."

elroy: "that's ok, it's raining."

mom: "ok, uhh, you can't play with your friends then."

elroy: "who cares? my friends can't play anyway."

mom: "gosh dangit. no tv!"

elroy: "nothing's on tv today."

the game could go on for hours, and even though elroy's older siblings are making every sort of shut-up gesture possible, elroy decides to try defying gravity - and perhaps make his mother go over a psychological cliff.

i was elroy. why? did i just want to see what would make my mother tick?

ignorance. that's why. i was ignorant.

"ignorance is the curse of God; knowledge is the wing wherewith we fly to heaven." william shakespeare.

it's like i couldn't get it through my little head to just be quiet. i wanted to always push the point.

why can't adults be like that with things that truly matter? everyone. why can't everyone have that child-like persistency? not to the annoying suicide-provoking point - but to the extent of greatness.

we tend to give up when things get tough. we don't like to push it. we like to find the easy way out, because easiness is bliss? ignorance is bliss? easiness is ignorance?

in context to a conversation we were having, my friend said to me, "well, is everything meant to be easy?" he probably never thought about what he said again, but i did.

nothing is supposed to be easy - everything to everyone is a different level of difficulty.

to a baby, crawling is a huge feat. a 76 year old mentally handicapped being may find the task of counting twenty-five pennies a bit more awesome then a young, smart, man.

like i said a while ago - i want to be the one that pushes the point. start something that won't end in the way of change.

perhaps i'll remember my persistent like skills when i want to accomplish that task ...