no, you don't.

the other day i heard someone say, "we live under the oppression that we get what we deserve."

so true right? but i must say i've indeed been the biggest hypocrite of all. i've preached and preached and preached that we don't deserve anything. and people who have considered themselves righteous or above suffering or pain - and even those who are suffering and in pain thinking, 'i don't deserve this...' - both sides of the spectrum are sorely lacking the truth that fortunately and unfortunately we don't get what we deserve.

but it does suck to realize this and believe in it so firmly when it comes to my pride. it's like i think that my pride (and no one else's) should be the exclusion to this theory. i've been handling things in a way that says, "you hurt me, i move on - you're really not worth my working to heal..."

when really my heart and knows better and luckily gives my pride a swift kick in the pants on most good days. it may take a while, but it happens. and i'm so thankful for that.

what or who do you think you deserve?

cool! you don't.