it's amazingly humbling to realize that something you thought was absolutely wrong, is actually bringing about purposeful and incredibly necessary change.
for the past five years plus, i've been living in the "safe" comfortability of not letting go of every part of my heart. for so long, i've been dwelling in the state that so many believers do... halfheartedness.
i've been giving up a part of my heart to Jesus, trusting that he'll take care of me in the way of finances, shelter, sustenance... but holding with a gluing grip the parts of my heart that i hold closest - worry, frustration, relationships...
over the past couple months, i've learned much about completely letting go. i've never experienced this before. i've always held on tight. i've always been... comfortable.
but hiding myself in the heart of God meant that i needed to become uncomfortable with my comfortability, and change things drastically.
things have most definitely been changed drastically, and i can honestly say that this has been the most uncomfortable season in my life. but i think it's good.
why is that good? because i'm becoming more and more at home with the harmonizing of hearts that's taking place between me and the One who calls me lovely.
look ma! waiting is an active word.
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