princess

many people wonder how i grew up in a household with five brothers, with no girls on my side. i don't ever really think about it. sure there were times i wish i had a sister, but most times, i loved it just the way it was. i love it just the way it is.

and even though my mom has my friends and brothers trying to call me "princess" (like it's actually going to turn me into some high heel wearing, prissy chick), i don't ever regret not containing as much femininity as other girls my age.

i would have to say that being around five boys all the time has actually challenged me in many of the ways i probably wouldn't have been accustomed to, had i grown up surrounded by females.

does that make any sense?

over the last years i've really enjoyed having a certain boldness that i really don't see present in so many of the girls of my generation.

tonight my dad said, "you should find your confidence in Jesus, not yourself."

isaiah 54:...4 do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated.

in this jason upton song called "whistle in your will", he sings, "rise up oh Lord, and break off that man-pleasing spirit."

most of the time, i don't fear rejection. and i think it's mainly because i know i have a loving savior who's opinion is all that matters.

and let me just tell you. that is a very freeing feeling.

the kind that lets you walk out of the house with no makeup, and the kind that lets you worship in the midst of many.

either way you look at it, shallow or not ...

nice feeling.