dubbed.

maybe i cannot comprehend true peace, because it's rarely present.

and maybe i cannot grasp true patience, because i rarely experience it.

i feel like the main character in pilgrim's progress. you know - the one that has such a heavy burden, and he keeps running into all these obstacles on his way to cast it off?

oh how much easier life would be without the obstacles. but then - would we really experience life to it's fullest?

i know i wouldn't have discovered writing, or new found relationships, or a lot of things i have without hardship.

so, not that i have a choice - but if i did...

would i rather go through hard times, in preparation for pretty cool things to come? or have a simple life, filled with dull, simple rubbish?

i just made having a simple life sound utterly terrible - but i think that's what it'd be.

no past mistakes to learn from would be ... boring.

one day i hope to be dubbed.

i want to be ordained with the peace and patience that the Father's heart has for me.