Monday, March 20, 2006

recognize me

why does generosity have to be recognized?

it seems as if everytime a good deed is done, we want recognition for it. it's only natural - but why is it? why can't we go along doing nice things for people without shouting it to the nations and sulking if we aren't heard for our kindness?

when i was a wee las i would unload the dishwasher and i remember having the pressing need to tell my mom with a positive certainty she heard, that i was the one who did it. it wouldn't be near as fun if she had some sort of doubt it was me. what if she thought it was my brother? oh, surely then my deed for the day would be shot to hell.

but now - ohhhh now - i have this desire to do things without anyone knowing it was me. it's like i want to go plant some 90 year old crippled lady a garden and then wait around the corner so i can see her reaction to the wonder placed in her front yard.

it's like - i know something she doesn't, and it is of no merit. who did it - when they did. it is irrelevant. the point is - a nice thing was done for an unsuspecting life liver.

i think - well, i think that we have chances to do nice things everyday. every hour. there is always an opportunity to do something well for another human, but we let something stop us. what is it? what stops us from blessing others?

i know that i didn't think of washing my dad's car for him before he got back in town until i was already in the shower. kinda sucks - i shoulda just hopped out and washed it anyway - but i let
something so small stop me from doing something so big.

it seems like it's always the tiny things that hinder us from greatness.

don't let them.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

i fully agree that we all need to bless others without looking for or expecting recognition, but what about recognition in the media? i am so sick and tired of hearing about how this person was persecuted for being gay or that person was discriminated against for no apparent reason. i wish the media would start reporting the times when a gay person was treated with respect or when someone performed random acts of kindness. not for the sake of the individual, but for the simple fact that we need to hear more about the good and stop focusing on the bad things in life.