the state of a state

i'm shivering, but i feel cold only on the inside.

i had the chance to go back to tulsa. it was so strange for me, as i expected being there to feel foreign, but that was exactly the problem. it didn't feel foreign. it felt like even though i had been gone for months, everything was still there waiting for me. nothing had changed.

and so i've come to the conclusion that oklahoma in its entirety is in a continuous state of washing its hair. when you wash your hair you don't change anything. sure, you might change your shampoo, but you never change the way you wash your hair. the motions you go through. the way you rinse. that is exactly what oklahoma's problem is. they get a new building here or there. new people move in, and old residents relocate, but nothing else changes.

unfortunately i made a trip to the mall during my visit. the time i spent at the mall only backed up my theory for this state. it's sad to say that when you see an urban looking person in tulsa you automatically know he's not from there. i actually missed north carolina. i wanted to get back to some normalcy. i've always known this to be true about oklahoma, yet i didn't want to express these thoughts for fear of making a resident/friend mad. i guess i just needed to figure out that saying mean/true things about a state is not the same as saying mean/true things about friend or person who lives there. unless (what is it with me and the italics today?) that friend or person is included with the arguments i present about the residents of the said state. hopefully they aren't, for then i would then need to mull over why they are in fact my friend. (ha)

i have a serious problem with the unfriendliness demonstrated by the people as a whole taking up residency in the midwest. their hospitality is so much worse than any i've ever encountered in new york city, chicago, los angeles, or any other largely populated city. people in the midwest simply don't know how to accept anyone unlike them. at schools in oklahoma you are made fun of for being ugly, overweight, or for wearing clothes from stores that aren't known. ridiculous. the only reason they are so, is the lack of culture presented to them on a daily basis. they have no differentiation.

i've recently gotten frustrated with continuous states of laziness (which were presented left and right during my trip to the midwest). oh sure, everyone can be lazy here and there, but when it is a lifestyle, i must take issue with it. do something with your life. heck, if you're 37 who cares? go to college if need be. go to oklahoma and try to bring them some culture.

dear everyone,

grow up.

sincerely,

joy